Dare to live the life you have dreamed for yourself…

I was in fifth grade when I officially declared I wanted to be a fashion designer.

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For our yearbook that year we had our own mini “bios” if you will, about what we wanted to be when we grew up, along with what our favorite activity, color was–or something along those lines. But, for what I wanted to be when I grew up–I had no hesitation of what to list.

 

I can’t recall the exact time that aspiration faded but, looking back now, I am happy I didn’t pursue that dream. Nothing against fashion designers–hell, I love fashion and give designers MAAAAAAJOR credit for all the hard work and effort they put in to making fabulous clothes, shoes and handbags. No, nothing against them at all. I just eventually realized I didn’t have the creativity, passion or even patience, to continue pursuing it.

After that dream fizzled out, my next and current dream was to write for a magazine. What magazine you may be wondering. Why, Cosmopolitan of course. I have loved that magazine for as long as I can remember. And again, I can’t pinpoint the exact moment I knew I wanted to be a writer/reporter/journalist in general, but, I would say it was definitely solidified in high school.

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LUCY HALE in Cosmopolitan Magazine, September 2012 Issue

I wrote for the school newspaper, Ramparts, and at one point served as the Opinion Editor. It was a blast. I loved writing for the newspaper then and continued that line of work in college, where I wrote for Central Michigan Life as well as Grand Central Magazine.

However, now that I’m graduated from college, going on almost two years, I can’t help but sometimes wonder when my dream of being a full-time writer/reporter/journalist will come true. I know I shouldn’t but, I find myself constantly comparing myself to others– especially those in the same field, and wonder, why isn’t that me yet?

It’s a struggle from time to time, more often than not, but, thankfully through this blog and my work at HOMTV, I know that when the timing is right (hopefully by this summer), I’ll have landed a full-time job in my field. It’s tough though–I’ll talk to people outside of the news industry and when I tell them my ultimate career goals, they give me this look–probably not meaning to make it look so obvious, but nonetheless it’s still there–like why on Earth would you want to be a journalist? The news industry (specifically print, which is my main and ultimate career goal) is dying, they say. As if I haven’t heard that before… Right?

Anyway… I wanted to be a fashion designer when I was younger and I don’t recall anyone trying to talk me out of that dream (now granted it was only fifth grade but still–if I said that now I would actually hope for someone to talk me out of that one, ha!) and so why now that I am an adult, and spent five years in college studying journalism, do people want to essentially tell me “good luck getting a job” with that degree? It’s not that person’s dream so why do he or she feel entitled to tell me my dream/degree sucks? I think some other people’s dreams suck/are stupid but, I don’t go around telling them that to their face. It’s none of my business, and if it makes them happy, then great!

My point is, my dreams I had for myself when I was younger are different than what they are today.

In fact, while at this very point in time I think I have my hopes, dreams and goals all figured out, the truth is, I really don’t. I think I do, but, only God knows what the future holds for me. What I want and what I actually end up doing could be totally different. Although, obviously, I hope my dreams come true. Not just for my professional career but in the personal aspects of my life as well.

For example, my dream is to be a reporter for a print publication. But, my internship position right now is a TV reporter. That doesn’t go to say I’ll only apply for print jobs when I’m finished with my internship–I’ll of course apply for all and any kind of journalism/news job–but, what’s most important to me is that I am happy with what I am doing. And yes, this internship is an awesome experience. I’m so thankful I was given the opportunity to do it. I have great bosses, co-workers; they want us interns to be successful and will answer any and all questions we have. And trust me, I have a lot of questions. LOL. I am learning so much that I can’t wait to apply to future jobs and show potential future employers my demo reel I’ll have made at the end of this semester.

But, if I’ll actually end up at a TV station once my internship is complete, I’m not sure. I tend to stress and worry too much about the future when I can’t control it–only the present–and it’s something I need to work on more. I would love to actually know and be people to share with the world that yes, this is what I will being doing come May, but, the truth is, I don’t know. I would love to say yes, I will be a reporter at X location, living in Y location, but, the future is unknown. And that’s both exciting and scary. More often scary than exciting but, still.

Right now I can only focus on continuing to better myself as a reporter and become more confident in my on-air ability and interviewing skills. After all, those are pretty darn important as a reporter.

So, instead of focusing so much on the future, I’m going to try my best to focus my mind on the present. And if anyone has any tips or advice on how to stay focused on the present and/ or improving my skills and abilities as a reporter, I would love to hear them. I am all ears.

Or, perhaps a suggestion for a hobby–other than blogging (*although, I really do want my blog to take off and be substantial enough to where people who follow and read it, are genuinely interested in what I have to say. So, please, bloggers/writers/etc., send me some topics to blog about; I would GREATLY appreciate it) and shopping (ha!), let me know.

Until next time…

XO,

Ana

Put on some lipstick and pull yourself together… OOTD: Monday

Happy Monday, everyone!

So when I woke up this morning the sun was shining bright but now that it’s later it decided to disappear. Like seriously, can it just be spring, or better yet, summer already? I’m ready for warmer temperatures and MORE sunshine that LASTS all day.

Anyway, today I’m blogging my #OutfitOfTheDay because I haven’t done so in a few weeks (via my blog anyway)

Here is today’s outfit…  


Dress: Charming Charlie, $35

– So I just bought this dress last weekend while I was in #Nashville and I am not one to try things on very often so I just bought it without trying it on, only to be wearing it now and having it be too big. But, thank goodness for safety pins, right? That’s what’s being used to pull the straps up right. Ha.

 * NOTE: Try before you buy. *

Nylons: Target, $8

– No big deal nylons but I love them! I had a pair before but they went through the wash and got stuck to my wrap towels with Velcro. Oops! But they have the shape top and they’re just awesome and comfortable. And this color is buff beige, but, they of course sell other colors too.

Shoes: Payless, although I can’t remember the price but if I had to guess, I would say probably $24.99

To finish the look I curled my hair with my bubble wand and used my Maybelline Divine Wine matte lipstick. 

— The cost I believe was $7.99 or $8.99, but, I bought a few that day and it was buy one, get one half off, at Ulta.

  

I’m telling you I’ve seriously becoming obsessed with lipstick lately. I need to get my tax return sent in so I can get my money back and buy some more! (At least one or two 😉) 

Anyway, so that is my outfit of the day for today. Enjoy!

And while you’re here, be sure to check out my newly updated blog–the different menus and widgets.

Until next time…

XO,

Ana

Monday: Outfit of the Day

Hello!

So while this blog is primarily focused on my experience at HOMTV as well as other miscellaneous topics I choose to write about, I am going to incorporate some #OOTD into as well.

This outfit of the day (ignore me not wearing shoes, lol) is a floral shirt from Express and black legging dress pants from New York and Company.

I haven’t really worn a shirt this “loud” before, but, as I strive to move outside of my comfort zone and received second opinions I decided to give it a try.

The shirt was $60, which, is expensive to me for a shirt, but, it’s a nice quality and something I can both wear for work or for a night out with my girl friends.

The pants were $60 as well. Again, while a part of me thinks the pants are a tad on the expensive side, I was and am willing to splurge on dress pants as I think they are a NECESSARY staple to my work wardrobe. Now I chose this particular style of dress pant because I love a skinny leg opening pant. Of course I didn’t actually start wearing skinny jeans until college (I believe–don’t recall wearing them in high school), but, once I tried a pair on I fell in love. Now when it comes to dress pants and an outfit in general, I say go with what you feel the most comfortable in. I myself like to dress in what’s comfortable, but also cute, and in style*. (At least, somewhat in style. I’m not sure how on trend this outfit in general is, but, the shirts and pants separately I would definitely say are “in” season right now.) I personally love a skinny pant because I love wearing boots and they never look bad with a skinny pant. Or, even heels, because who doesn’t love heels? (Okay, so they can be painful but now when it comes to shoes, I say style over comfort, LOL) But again, dress in whatever makes YOU shine and feel comfortable and fashion-savvy.

So total this outfit was $120, plus tax. But, again, totally worth it. Plus, while shopping, the pants were on special–buy one pair get the second for some* [cheaper] price (can’t remember now), and the shirt was part of buy one, get one 50% off.

Now I typically wear jewelry in my everyday life, whether it’s for work or not, but. today I decided to now wear jewelry as I felt the shirt spoke for itself and was, again, “loud” enough–it made a big enough statement on its own–to not warrant any jewelry.

I did however (and it may be hard to tell in the picture–the lighting in my room where my mirror is isn’t the greatest) wear a pink lipstick to match the pink on my shirt. Now I am the type of person who likes to be matchy-matchy and not everyone is like that and that’s okay. It’s just a personal preference of mine. Now I won’t necessarily match all the time–or, at least I try not to, but sometimes it just happens naturally. This lipstick I purchased from Ulta for $7.99* (I believe) and the brand is Loreal Paris, color: Pink Flamingo – 180.

 

 

 

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Loreal Paris Pink Flamingo lipstick, $7.99 [Ulta.com]

So there you have it.

My outfit of the day for this Monday.

Until next time…

XO,

Ana